This is the first family picnic that I have not included Mom. She is so withdrawn that the interaction at the dinner table or repeated movement from room to room seems to agitate her. The Fourth of July ended with her being frustrated and resisting everything. Struggling in the wheel chair as I brought her home she tore the skin on her arm. It took until last week to heel. I did not want to force a repeat of that day.
So I spent much of the day sitting with Mom, trying to engage her. Even though she admits she does not recognize what she is watching, it is hard to get her to look at me when the TV is on. Her speech is halting and she seldom finishes a thought, her voice is feeble and tremulous. She moans almost constantly, and swears she is making no noise when I ask her what is wrong.
If all that is not bad enough, tonight was the first time she let a portion of her ice cream melt and puddle in her bowl. She has always devoured her ice cream. These are the days that bother me most. Her physical condition seems unchanged, but her affect and interactions display serious decline. These kind of days make me a little sad. Well this is just a short note, so let me say good night. Peace.Technorati Tags: , , ,